我从小就喜欢文科,去高中报道的那天被家长骗了(我妈认为学文没有出路),导致没跟负责登记的老师提出要进文科班,于是被编入理科班学了一年,高二干脆决定更跑偏一点,走艺术道路,故借着这个名号转到了文科。文科班的数学老师是一个50多岁干瘦的老男人,每天在课堂上莫名其妙就发脾气,常常对着全班同学(几乎都是女生)说你们这些女生就是笨,女生就是脑子不行,因为女生就是脑袋笨所以才学不好数学一类的话。大家一般就当没听见。


有一次,因为他板书的一处错误,使我没有看懂一道题,我当时并不百分百肯定是他的错误,同时也为了表示尊重,我并没有立刻举手提出疑问,而是下课单独去讲台上问他,全程冷静且和气有礼貌,但他意识到是自己写错了之后暴跳如雷,先是突然对我破口大骂,然后拿起数学书卷成一卷用力打我,打到我身上之后发出了巨大的声响,全班都听到了。当时全班都陷入了震惊的沉默,但因为我是单独去问问题的,没有同学知道他突然打我的缘由,也就无人介入。我遂反应激烈,与他吵了起来。在我们争吵过程中大家也听到了来龙去脉,但并无任何人提供帮助。下节课就要开始,我提出到他办公室把这件事说个清楚,不要耽误下一节课老师同学们的正常上课。他与两位女老师共同使用一个办公室。两位女老师看见我流泪与他争执,不为所动。期间,他更是说出了“你们女生不就是脑子笨,学不明白理科,不然你转来文科干什么”的话,两位教文科的女老师依然不为所动,仿佛没有听见一般。


我哭着向他大吼“因为我要学美术”后,我的班主任介入,把我从他办公室带走。班主任是女性地理老师,她对我说让我不要把这件事放在心上,说“他就这样”。但这并没有安慰到我。令我心寒的是,我在隔壁文科班的最好的女生朋友(她们班也是这个男人教数学),听我讲述完这件事后,也没对这位数学老师说出的话提出任何异议,而是劝我包容,容忍这个男人,也说“他就这样”,她一点也不觉得这个事是多么严重的事。

当时的我只是因为那个男人的无素质行为和宛如巨婴的情绪管理能力而受伤,并觉得非常委屈,虽然听到了那种歧视性的言论,但并没有意识到那背后的歧视也是我委屈的一部分,等我意识到那歧视的巨大不公正后,我已经从那里毕业,现在对那个男人除了唾弃只有唾弃。

Btw,高考时我的数学成绩虽然不是特别高,但也并不低。那是一所重点高中,它的理科在我们市数一数二,我在理科班时,数学成绩最好的人,我们的年级第一,正是女生。


而被他说“女生就是脑子笨”的我,在大学本科期间也以专业第一的成绩毕了业。

——张典



I grew up loving the arts, and was cheated by my parents the day I reported to high school (my mom thought there was no way out of learning the language), so I didn't propose to enter the arts class with the teacher in charge of registration, so I was enrolled in the science class for a year, and simply decided to go a little more off the beaten track in my sophomore year, taking the path of art, so I used the name to switch to the arts. The math teacher in the liberal arts class was a 50-year-old dry, thin old man who inexplicably lost his temper in class every day and often said to the class (almost all girls) that you girls are just stupid, girls just can't think, because girls are stupid so they can't learn math. The company's main goal is to provide the best possible solution to the problem.

Once, because of a mistake in his board, so I did not understand a problem, I was not 100% sure it was his mistake, but also to show respect, I did not immediately raise my hand to raise questions, but after class alone to the podium to ask him, the whole calm and polite, but he realized that he wrote a mistake after the thunderstorm, first suddenly cursed at me, and then picked up the math book into a volume of force The whole class heard the loud noise after it hit me. The whole class was in shocked silence, but because I was alone to ask questions, no classmate knew the reason why he suddenly hit me, and no one intervened. I then reacted violently and argued with him. Everyone heard the context during our argument, but no one offered help. As the next class was about to begin, I offered to go to his office to clear the matter up so as not to delay the regular classes of the teachers and students in the next session. He shared an office with two female teachers. The two female teachers saw me in tears and argued with him, but were not moved. During that time, he even said "you girls are just stupid and can't understand science, otherwise why would you switch to arts".

After I cried and shouted "because I want to study art", my homeroom teacher intervened and took me away from his office. My homeroom teacher, a female geography teacher, told me not to take it personally, saying, "That's just the way he is. But that didn't comfort me. What chilled me was that my best girl friend in the next arts class (the same man taught math in their class), after hearing my account of the incident, didn't raise any objections to what the math teacher said, but advised me to be tolerant and to put up with the man, saying "that's just the way he is", and that she didn't think it was a serious matter at all. The matter.

At that time, I was only hurt by the man's unqualified behavior and emotion management ability like a giant baby, and felt very aggrieved, although I heard the discriminatory remarks, but did not realize that the discrimination behind that was also part of my aggression, and when I realized the great injustice of that discrimination, I had already graduated from there, and now to that man in addition to scorn only scorn.

Btw, my math score in the college entrance exam was not particularly high, but it wasn't low either. It is a key high school, its science in our city one of the best, I was in the science class, the best math scores, our grade first, it is a girl.

And he said "girls are just stupid", I also graduated with the first grade in my major during my undergraduate studies.

——Zhang Dian




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