‘ 我奶奶重男轻女。听我妈和外婆说，我出生的时候她在看隔壁床陌生人的男婴儿。
其实我一直不懂，为什么她明明已经有我爸这个儿子了还想要个孙子。上小学的时候她被爷爷家暴，我当时目睹了全过程被吓哭了。爷爷扇她耳光、用晾衣架打她，事后她一只耳朵几乎聋了，后来同一边的眼睛也出了问题，好在之后他们就分居了。我平时跟爷爷也没有来往，但对奶奶还是怒其不争。
我初中那会儿开放二胎，政策出来前就有风声了吧，她就暗示我爸再生一个她帮忙带。我甚至怀疑如果不是怕我爸丢了工作，她不会有耐心等到政策施行。总之她的态度很强硬，对我美其名曰“弟弟可以保护你”。我妈工作忙身体不好，我也不喜欢弟弟，当时我说如果我妈生个男孩子我就把他掐死。我爸也不想要二胎，她闹着要跟我爸断绝关系，这个事闹得挺大，很多亲戚知道了都劝她，可能从头到尾一两年她才死心。
我记得很清楚，初中的时候放学我会和朋友一起走，平时也聊各种事情。有一次说到我奶奶重男轻女，朋友快到家的时候正好讲到她逼着我妈生二胎，我就在那条小路上一边说一边哭。
高中的时候学了生物，她每次跟我说谁谁谁生了二胎（无非就是追男宝）我就用唐氏综合症怼她。她不懂这些反而会说，那些小孩都挺正常的。
如果以世俗的眼光（成绩、学历等等）来看，和亲戚的小孩相比我算是很优秀的了，但是她还是觉得生男孩好。不得不说，我奶奶这种刻在骨子里的重男轻女对我的成长有一定的负面影响。
——江莞
My grandmother was patriarchal. I heard my mother and grandmother say that when I was born she was looking at the male baby of a stranger in the next bed.
In fact, I never understood why she wanted a grandson when she already had my father as her son. When she was in elementary school, she was abused by her grandfather, and I was scared and cried when I witnessed the whole process. He slapped her and beat her with a clothesline. Afterwards, she almost went deaf in one ear and later had problems with her eye on the same side. I usually do not interact with my grandfather, but I am still angry at my grandmother.
I was in junior high school when the second child was opened, the policy came out before the wind, I think, she implied that my father regenerated a she helped bring. I even suspect that if my dad hadn't been afraid of losing his job, she wouldn't have had the patience to wait until the policy was implemented. The actual fact is that you will be able to get a lot more than just a few of the most popular and popular items. My mother is busy with work and health, and I do not like my brother, I said at the time that if my mother had a boy I would strangle him to death. My father also did not want a second child, she made a fuss to cut off relations with my father, this thing is quite a big deal, many relatives know to persuade her, probably from the beginning to the end of a year or two before she died.
I remember very well, when I was in junior high school I would walk with my friends after school, and usually talk about various things. Once talking about my grandmother's preference for sons, my friend was almost home when she happened to talk about her forcing my mother to have a second child, and I was crying while talking on that path.
When I learned biology in high school, every time she told me who had a second child (nothing more than chasing a male baby) I disliked her with Down syndrome. She didn't understand this but would say that those children are quite normal.
If you look at it from the world's perspective (grades, education, etc.), I'm considered very good compared to my relatives' children, but she still thinks it's better to have a boy. I have to say that my grandmother's patriarchal beliefs had a negative impact on my development.
--Jiang Guan
